I'm on this spiritual journey to figure out what I need to do, where I need to be, and how I'm going to get there. I ask God to grace me with the spirit of patience so that when the time comes for me fulfill my destiny, I won't be alarmed, surprised, or disobedient. I am destined to be a scientist (or at least that's what I think). Nights upon nights, I dream of solutions to problems in my sleep.
I create scenarios in which I have to speak to people in a formal manner. I think about how I'm going to approach someone or get something done. I dream about how I can solve that math problem that was just bothering me so much the night before. I organize things in my dreams, like the real Maleshia J. would do.
Do ordinary people think of science, even while they're sleeping? I'd say most don't, but I could be wrong. I'm going to take that as a sign that I'm supposed to remain in the STEM fields, PhD or not. I love this stuff, but my passion is not focused or defined at this point. There's still more time for me to get things figured out. [Yes, I know that last sentence was very passive. That's because God's going to handle it and guide me.]
I love people watching, photography, looking at art and designs, building structures. Architectural engineering sounds fun. I've determined within the last few weeks that I want to be somewhere that fuses beauty/art with design to create things are can be used and are aesthetically pleasing to the eye. I think that's what I want to do. If I pursue a PhD, it has to be something that is engineering-related but has a touch of art/design (not completely mechanical design).
Wow! I feel a lot better. Just jotting this down will help me keep my word and uphold my faith. One thing I have no doubt about is that I am destined to think.
